You wanted SOMETHING so bad that you GAVE everything you have and you TOOK all chances and you WORKED double for it. When you’re just about to grab it, you were slapped in the face because you learned that you’ve been working for NOTHING all along. That you failed to realize the world could be basing on DOUBLE-STANDARDS. And it freaking hurts. YES. I KNOW THE FEELING. The feeling of disappointment and defeat.
It was just a few months back when I thought my efforts would finally pay off. But nothing was recognized. Not even a single effort. I took it personally and that ignited something bad in me: DEMOTIVATION.
Now that its once back, I realized I NEVER REALLY WANTED IT. Not because I have proven my point right nor my pride’s taking its place (maybe?) but because I don’t see myself doing it anymore.
I DON’T WANT TO BE A PART OF THE RDM TEAM.